The Fi(ND)ing Motherhood Journal:

Reflections on Matrescence and Raising Neurodivergent Children

Welcome to The Fi(ND)ing Motherhood Journal — a collection of reflections, insights, and personal stories exploring the transformation of motherhood through the lens of matrescence. Here, I write about what it really means to raise neurodivergent and disabled children in a world that often misunderstands them — and us.

These pieces are adapted from the Fi(ND)ing Motherhood podcast, blending lived experience, research, and heart-led honesty to help you feel seen, grounded, and less alone on this journey. Whether you’re newly navigating a diagnosis or years into parenting a child with additional needs, you’ll find compassion, community, and calm here.

Rewriting the Script: What If You Spoke to Yourself Like Someone You Loved?
Motherhood & Identity, Healing & Self-Compassion Kirsten Killoran Motherhood & Identity, Healing & Self-Compassion Kirsten Killoran

Rewriting the Script: What If You Spoke to Yourself Like Someone You Loved?

We say things to ourselves we’d never say to anyone else — not even someone we disliked. This episode is an invitation to pause, soften, and begin speaking to yourself with the same kindness you offer everyone else. Because you can’t shame yourself into healing. But you can love yourself into peace.

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Some Days I Don’t Want to Fight Anymore

Some Days I Don’t Want to Fight Anymore

Some days, the fight just goes out of you. After yet another school meeting or system battle, you sit in the car and feel… nothing. No anger. No tears. Just the numbness that comes from trying too hard for too long.

This post is about the quiet cost of advocacy — the emotional exhaustion, the nervous system shutdown, and the moments when even the strongest mothers feel like they can’t keep going. Through honesty, science, and self-compassion, we explores what it means to rest without guilt and return to yourself without shame.

Because sometimes, letting go of the fight is how we find our strength again.

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Who Am I Now? Rediscovering Yourself After Your Child’s Diagnosis

Who Am I Now? Rediscovering Yourself After Your Child’s Diagnosis

After your child’s diagnosis, it’s common to feel like you’ve lost yourself. Explore how to grieve, rediscover, and rebuild your identity as a mother through self-compassion and connection.

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